Wishing you were somehow here again...

I've always wanted the words of that song to relate to my life

And its in that wishing that I feel I am betraying my family

but in denying my emotion I am betraying my heart

and I know from growing up in church

that the heart is wicked, who can know it?

But is it totally wicked?

Yes its capeable of imagining up horrible and unmentionable things

but what about when you've invested in someones life?

And your hoping for the best for them?

But you cant be there and you hope they have the strength to pull through anyway?

Is that your soul feeling? or your heart?

All you can do is pray

i guess

and dont look back

much love

10:4

p.s shout out to jason (: as he visited me and grace at uni today!