5 years later and it still relates

I've hardly been outside my room in days,
'Cause I don't feel that I deserve the sunshine's rays.
The darkness helped until the whiskey wore away,
And it was then I realised the conscience never fades.

When you're young you have this image of your life,
That you'll be scrupulous and one day even make a wife.
And you make boundaries you'd never dream to cross,
And if you happen to, you wake completely lost.

But I will fight for you, Be sure that I will fight,
Until we're the special two once again.
And we will only need each other, we'll bleed together,
Our hands will not be taught to hold another's,
'cause we're the special two!
And we could only see each other, we'll breathe together,
These arms will not be taught to need another's,'cause we're the special two.

I remember someone old once said to me,
That "lies will lock you up with truth the only key."
But I was comfortable and warm inside my shell,
And couldn't see this place could soon become my hell.
So is it better to tell and hurt or lie to save their face?
Well I guess the answer is, don't do it in the first place.
I know I'm not deserving of your trust from you right now,
But if by chance you change your mind, you know I will not let you down,

'Cause we were the special two, and we'll be again.
And we will only need each other, we'll bleed together,'cause we're the special two.
And we could only see each other, we'll breathe together
These arms will not be taught to need another,'cause we're the special two.

I step outside my mind's eyes for a minute.
And I look over me like a doctor looking for disease,
Or something that could ease the pain.
But nothing cures the hurt you, you bring on by yourself,
Just remembering, just remembering how we were...

when we would only need each otherwe'd bleed together
these hands would not be taught to hold another's,
We were the special two.
And we could only see each other we'd bleed together,
These arms would not be taught to need another's,
'Cause we're the special two.

much love

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tired

is it possible to be so emotionally spent that it physically starts to show?

I had a really good chillax and forget life night at elles yesterday

If only it were possible to escape everyday...(insert depressing sigh)

much love

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give up

I give up. totally. I cant do this. anymore.

adult responsibility

Sometimes I wish for the old days back

you lie at 8 you get the spanking of a lifetime

lie ten years later and all you get is a dissaproved look and a 'you choose the path you take in life'

you sneak out at 8 and you get grounded for life

sneak out 10 years later and you just get the 'im really dissapointed'

I'm really missing childhood conciquences

growing up is lame

anyway

much love

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Orientations are BOR-ING!

They really are.

Ok so there is a greek society.

You go out on drinking parties.

and have sports groups

that go out and drink

and you have a chess club

that meet over drinks

and you have designated smoking areas

where you can also drink

and we have a uni ball

where you can....ENOUGH WITH THE DRINKING ALREADY

omg, catholics are worse than sinners, I'm telling you.

Isnt it a bit sacreligious to get smashed while there is a whopping big statue of Jesus in the courtyard and the nuns stop by to say hello, and mass is going on only 3 feet away in the chapel?

And since when do catholic unis have muslim prayer rooms.

Something is seriously messed up here :P

well such was my day at uni orientation

much love

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and not only was everyone obsessed with drinking my friend was complaining to everyone cuz there was no bar on the uni campus. But its ok the members of the student association gave an extensive list of pubs in the strathfield area. ><

:P

Reading :) all day

So I read 7th Heaven, A Womens Murder Club book, today.

So its awesome!

Started my interest in WMC approximately this time last year when it was on tv (I watched it at my grandma's before you even ask) Fell in love with Sarg Lindsay Boxer as she is totally awesome and her handsome parter Richie. I love my murder mysteries.

So the ending in 7th Heaven was totally unexpected-jodi-piccoult like!

Its a defo must read!

Anyway. Off to do my domestic duties :)

much love

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My New Favourite Song

Soulmate - Natasha Bedingfield

The words just describe everyone's longing for a soulmate :)

much love

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KILL ME

NOW!

I am so freaking bored. I totally cant wait until I start uni cuz then at least I'll have something productive to do.

There is only so much housework one can do before she starts going insane ><

much love

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When there is a soulmate for everyone...

Thanks for loving me
Thanks for reminding me that I'm well and truely on my way to hell
Thanks for being there when I got into trouble (again)
Thanks for not judging me when I was crapping my pants thinking you would
Thanks for loving me even when I lower my standards
Thanks for always being supportive
Thanks for not pretending to have all the answers
Thanks for having boy issues
Thanks for letting me dog you at your house and watch James Bond
Thanks for always feeding me chicken and pizza when I come over
Thanks for knowing how to be a friend without being told
Thanks for calling me a cow in year 8 cuz I told you off for something random, thats the trappings of a true friend
Thanks for loving books
Thanks for showing me that sometimes you have to face your problems
Thanks for telling me that sometimes I have to put myself first
Thanks for hating my music
Thanks for telling me off cuz I had my music blaring in the car in cabramatta at like 11 at night
Thanks for putting up with my psycho driving
Thanks for hating Jodie with me (lol)
Thanks for being the bestest friend ever
Thanks
A million times thanks

(it would be a billion but you refuse to fall in love with brendan!)

I love you

much love

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Lessons I learned from Ariel

Ariel: If I become human, I'll never be with my father or sisters again.
Ursula: That's right. But you'll have your man.
Life's full of tough choices, innit?

Two lines that sum up my life at the moment

Too bad the mermaid didnt give me the answers

much love

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He makes me feel like a (disney) princess

And I'm not just saying that :)

I have no idea whats up with the ranom giddiness :o

much love

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So true

This was on post secret this week

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